Pretty Sure Abadoning England is What They Mean By L-O-V-E

Feeling A Little: Tired
Playing A Little: The Break-up Song by Runner Runner
Recommending A Little: Electric Valentine

I NEVER in a million year would have thought that I would give up England/ the rest of the world because of a boy (and I am homesick). I think half of the reason I like BC boy is because I have the romantic notion. You know the whole childhood sweethearts separated for years then brought back together to fall deeply in love, then blah blah marriage blah blah kids the boring bits :D. Well and the other half is I am psycho and I don't think he knows that... well except I kind of told him I wanted to be a vampire with a cape. :D Don't think I scared him off too too much (He told me he wanted to be a vampire too so bonding.)

Instead is being OH so kind about it. I don't know what he looks like now, but I figure at 10 he was adorable what's 6 years... Kay me. But that's because I had like uber short hair and wasn't blind. Plus I am a little confused on this straight thing but I will figure that out the next time we talk which I totally am aching for. He apparently has a gay best friend who tells people yes when they ask if they are going out. < Bonding moment. :P But when I asked him if he had a girlfriend I felt like an ass because they had just broken up but who knows if he just didn't want to correct me.

Oh god and I think Instead actually found like THE happy medium for me. Sure I don't get the education I want but that's what books are for. Kindergarten teacher. Then I won't have to steal them and I get to spend a whole day with adorable kids. I know someone is going to say this is a waste of potential and all that shit but you know what I can imagine me happy and I'll publish a book. :P If I ever learn the English language properly. I never thought about it because everyone was like Zoe you have to take 6 million years of school in order to be something. How about I take 4 and that'll make me happy.

Um I think I totally abadoned my dreams of the US. I can't take my SATs. I think I am pushing everything aside just because its too much. I am running around taking 4 cores (and perfectly on top of my homework :D), doing someones Career and Life Management course, working 22 hours a week, volunteering 3 hours a week, babysitting saturday nights, lunch on sunday usually followed by some sort of social function. AKA no time. I love it though.

For some reason I just want to not do my summer research thing that I've been blathering about forever. I know that half the things I want to do instead would never happen but it just seems like things I do have planned happen at the very end. I definitely need to get a car though. Its just decided now. I have the funds. I just need the license. Blah that means courses. But it also means I can road trip it. Yay! That is like my dream to take a road trip. I need a car and a license by this summer so I need to get on it. God I am a loser. I should have done all this in like September so I didn't have to take the bus this winter. Brrr...

Until the Next Song,
Zoë

Zoë's heart belongs in BC

Feeling A Little: Torn
Playing A Little: Girls On the Dance Floor by Far East Movement
Recommending A Little: The Veronicas

Oh god. I have a crush again. Except I haven't seen this boy since I was 10. We have kept in scattered contact but I was talking to him today and oh god we are soul mates. Kay so maybe not soul mates but we do have a ton in common. I seriously have this giant urge now to get to BC and see him again. He meets my height requirements but alas he does not meet my distance requirements... Have you ever just wanted to hug someone again?

I miss our childhood "dating." We once "kissed" I say "kissed" because we were 9 and it was on a dare and on his cheek. I remember his mother like loving us. Aw it makes me miss the days of my childhood. As much as I love everything I have now I miss BC like crazy. I still can tell you exactly how to get to his house from my old house, which is creepy but with a photographic memory possible. I can tell you a lot of things about that town. I think that may be a summer gift to me. BC visit because I miss it like mad lately and I think I deserve a little getaway.

I remember I think for his 8 or 9th birthday I bought him a Ken doll and gave it to him as a prank gift. I had like some transformer/ bionicle thing for an actual present but I remember him telling me he chopped off poor Ken's head. Pretty amusing. I miss him like crazy. I miss my old house. I miss my old life. Sure I would probably not ever be where I am now but I loved where I was... Ah the ifs or buts of life...

He has physics too. Took it over Bio. Can you believe!? Pfft. I'd take Bio over physics in a heart beat. Ha ha I am like a little girl in love. I just miss him like mad. We were like BFFs. I was like another boy in the group. Now I am not so much. We'd even be vampires together. Something I have been searching everywhere for. ;)

Until the Next Song,
Zoë