Internet: Evil, Impersonal and Zombie

Feeling A Little: Virtually Rejected
Playing A Little: Like A Prayer by Rufio
Recommending A Little: Life (The TV show because its fun)
Recommending A Little Music: We the Kings

So I added someone on Facebook and was greatly disappointed when they rejected my friend request. I'm sorry but I have added people that I know by like one friend and maybe one day I said hi to or sat next to during some class but didn't realize they were there. I let them see my deep dark personal life... okay so being pissed off my sister is not really deep or dark but its not something I yell standing on tables. Back to be rejected... it feels nicer on the internet.

Maybe my teacher aunt who apparently hates kids and everything they stand for yet teaches 8th grade, was right. The internet is very impersonal. Now I don't go around internet dating because I sure as hell don't live in Arizona nor have a hot bod and who is to say that 19/m/cal is actually 19 or male. I do have blonde hair though. I am also not a 18 year old living in her own apartment typing in lace panties. Those conversations are fun especially if you make up some obscene costume that makes no sense to wear while on an internet chat room probably talking to some fat, bald 50 year old man.

Internet... It is very impersonal though especially if you never see the person. The rejection feels like oh well I'll get the next "Person You Might Know" It'll make you fall in love all over if you delete a few people. More random people to see if they will add you. I have some random chick in the UK who is my friend. We have never talked or even actually acknologed we are friends. Its an odd internet relationship.

The internet is a weird place full of random people who think they know you and even more random people who think you are lounging around in a matching pink lace panty and bra set while typing to someone that yes of course you will run off and marry them. When really you are eating chocolate in a paint stained pair of sweats and laughing hysterically at the idiocy at people on the internet.

Going on the internet seems to kill brain cells. So stop it. Eat fish while going on the internet to counter act the evil of the internet.

Until The Next Song,
Zoë

Future May Be Foggy But You Are Definately There

Feeling A Little: Nostalgic
Playing A Little: Thank You For The Music from Mamma Mia
Recommending A Little: Wall-e (The movie rocks man, best in years)

I have just come from reading Batman's blog (http://photographicmemory4.blogspot.com/) and it in all seriosity made me cry. As much as I do want to get out of this godforsaken town it holds too many memories. I had the best years of my life. Nothing can top my best friends I am sure. Now I cry so much when thinking about leaving because I hear about people at like 50 reconnecting with their friends from high school and I don't want that. I understand everyone goes on to make new friends but seriously mine are the best and I don't want to let them go for some girl who is afraid to tell me exactly what she thinks of me or there to try to mend the biggest problems.

My friends tell me exactly what they think. It is expected. We have our secrets but eventually we discover them and then laugh or go into a deep discussion at 1 in the morning. Everyone changes, people grow apart but if we can stay together through all of this I just hope we can stay together through whatever idiocy lays ahead for us to grow into.

One day we will all have families, including Instead and Dokkie-. One day the sound of little feet will be heard around our houses, some may be puppies or kitties though in the case of the boys. One day we will have a close friend who lives only a few houses down. On that day though I hope after I have tucked up my kids (because well I want them.) I end up video chatting or on the phone with all four. I don't want to let them go and frankly I'm not going to... well maybe if they are like "Zo um Zoe let go right now or I am going to make you and not very nicely."

If we ever do drift apart I'll may even name my kid Lionel or nickname my first one Darth (Its just cruel to make that his name). Actually if we stay close as always I probably will be asleep when the nurse brings the birth certificate and Batman will end up naming him Darth Vader. :D

Friends come and go but mine helped me through the rough patches and helped me patch up old rough patches that are a bitch and just keep coming back. They helped me become who I really am. I was me before but I was just hiding behind my problems and they pushed them out of the way and went stop being an idiot and lets go pickle people. They taught me stupid social rules that make no sense because seriously I really would give someone chocolate after a breakup. If someone gave me chocolate I'd be happy. Come on chocolate. Relationships have stupid rules.

Batman and I are really very much alike. Scarily at times really. I think we are twins that if are too far apart bleed inwardly... sorry needed that Jane Eyre reference. We were both oddly serious but now we can be serious but not all the time. Now we run around throwing pickles at people. I never thought I would ever find that best friend people used to talk about but I found a better one. She is most definately better than my sister.

Now if we ever grow apart I am sure at 80 we'll find out way to the same nursing home and end up on rocking chairs reminding Dokkie- about the Mexican coke bottle and laughing histerically as he still cringes. We'll end up remembering all the good times. We'll end up actually doing Instead's Hot n' Cold dance.

All in all I am scared of losing them but one day if they are ever lost I'll find 'em again. Because friends may come and go but these ones may just be crazy enough to want to hang out together. We can be the crazies in the insane asylum. :D

Until The Next Song,
Zoë