Internet: Evil, Impersonal and Zombie

Feeling A Little: Virtually Rejected
Playing A Little: Like A Prayer by Rufio
Recommending A Little: Life (The TV show because its fun)
Recommending A Little Music: We the Kings

So I added someone on Facebook and was greatly disappointed when they rejected my friend request. I'm sorry but I have added people that I know by like one friend and maybe one day I said hi to or sat next to during some class but didn't realize they were there. I let them see my deep dark personal life... okay so being pissed off my sister is not really deep or dark but its not something I yell standing on tables. Back to be rejected... it feels nicer on the internet.

Maybe my teacher aunt who apparently hates kids and everything they stand for yet teaches 8th grade, was right. The internet is very impersonal. Now I don't go around internet dating because I sure as hell don't live in Arizona nor have a hot bod and who is to say that 19/m/cal is actually 19 or male. I do have blonde hair though. I am also not a 18 year old living in her own apartment typing in lace panties. Those conversations are fun especially if you make up some obscene costume that makes no sense to wear while on an internet chat room probably talking to some fat, bald 50 year old man.

Internet... It is very impersonal though especially if you never see the person. The rejection feels like oh well I'll get the next "Person You Might Know" It'll make you fall in love all over if you delete a few people. More random people to see if they will add you. I have some random chick in the UK who is my friend. We have never talked or even actually acknologed we are friends. Its an odd internet relationship.

The internet is a weird place full of random people who think they know you and even more random people who think you are lounging around in a matching pink lace panty and bra set while typing to someone that yes of course you will run off and marry them. When really you are eating chocolate in a paint stained pair of sweats and laughing hysterically at the idiocy at people on the internet.

Going on the internet seems to kill brain cells. So stop it. Eat fish while going on the internet to counter act the evil of the internet.

Until The Next Song,
Zoë

Future May Be Foggy But You Are Definately There

Feeling A Little: Nostalgic
Playing A Little: Thank You For The Music from Mamma Mia
Recommending A Little: Wall-e (The movie rocks man, best in years)

I have just come from reading Batman's blog (http://photographicmemory4.blogspot.com/) and it in all seriosity made me cry. As much as I do want to get out of this godforsaken town it holds too many memories. I had the best years of my life. Nothing can top my best friends I am sure. Now I cry so much when thinking about leaving because I hear about people at like 50 reconnecting with their friends from high school and I don't want that. I understand everyone goes on to make new friends but seriously mine are the best and I don't want to let them go for some girl who is afraid to tell me exactly what she thinks of me or there to try to mend the biggest problems.

My friends tell me exactly what they think. It is expected. We have our secrets but eventually we discover them and then laugh or go into a deep discussion at 1 in the morning. Everyone changes, people grow apart but if we can stay together through all of this I just hope we can stay together through whatever idiocy lays ahead for us to grow into.

One day we will all have families, including Instead and Dokkie-. One day the sound of little feet will be heard around our houses, some may be puppies or kitties though in the case of the boys. One day we will have a close friend who lives only a few houses down. On that day though I hope after I have tucked up my kids (because well I want them.) I end up video chatting or on the phone with all four. I don't want to let them go and frankly I'm not going to... well maybe if they are like "Zo um Zoe let go right now or I am going to make you and not very nicely."

If we ever do drift apart I'll may even name my kid Lionel or nickname my first one Darth (Its just cruel to make that his name). Actually if we stay close as always I probably will be asleep when the nurse brings the birth certificate and Batman will end up naming him Darth Vader. :D

Friends come and go but mine helped me through the rough patches and helped me patch up old rough patches that are a bitch and just keep coming back. They helped me become who I really am. I was me before but I was just hiding behind my problems and they pushed them out of the way and went stop being an idiot and lets go pickle people. They taught me stupid social rules that make no sense because seriously I really would give someone chocolate after a breakup. If someone gave me chocolate I'd be happy. Come on chocolate. Relationships have stupid rules.

Batman and I are really very much alike. Scarily at times really. I think we are twins that if are too far apart bleed inwardly... sorry needed that Jane Eyre reference. We were both oddly serious but now we can be serious but not all the time. Now we run around throwing pickles at people. I never thought I would ever find that best friend people used to talk about but I found a better one. She is most definately better than my sister.

Now if we ever grow apart I am sure at 80 we'll find out way to the same nursing home and end up on rocking chairs reminding Dokkie- about the Mexican coke bottle and laughing histerically as he still cringes. We'll end up remembering all the good times. We'll end up actually doing Instead's Hot n' Cold dance.

All in all I am scared of losing them but one day if they are ever lost I'll find 'em again. Because friends may come and go but these ones may just be crazy enough to want to hang out together. We can be the crazies in the insane asylum. :D

Until The Next Song,
Zoë

In which Zoe is insane and wishes to be a vampire.

Feeling A Little: Sick.
Playing A Little: Never Let You Go by Third Eye Blind
Recommending A Little: True Blood because who doesn't love sexy, blood thirsty vampires.

So I have discovered that in the world of blogs mine frankly is below par. We aren't playing golf either so that's not quite a good thing. Which randomly I must wonder why do we refer to something awesome as above par because par makes me think golf and above par in golf isn't good. Or maybe I am a crazy person who only knows about swimming rules. Any who back to my blog... hmm maybe that is why my blog is lacking I kind of just go off on a random rant. Random rants are fun but mine are out to lunch. Being out to lunch is always fun though... good food.

Okay to my recommendations now that I am done feeling sorry for my poor lonely, cold blog. Being sick in bed gives you a lot of spare time where all you do is lie there and just stare at the ceiling or sleep. Now I do sleep a lot but when sick if I am left to think I think about what ever hurts or is causing me such misery so I watch TV. I watch a lot of really boring, puts me out instantly TV which is good because sleep is good. Unfortunately I found a good TV show. Now shh I watched it on Megavideo and Supernova so it wasn't exactly on TV. Any ways Twilight loving people skip happily ahead and ignore my next paragraph.

Seriously Twilight is like a sucky True Blood. True Blood is all political and has that little "No matter who you are you should have the same rights" message which makes it fun and interesting, especially because everyone has that southern accent. Twilight I suppose is more teenagery but in the end nothing was accomplished. Two people fell in love and had a baby. My parents did the same thing. They are not the most interesting people in the world and maybe the falling out of love would make a good book (my parents are insane literally) but the falling in love is all the same. Okay enough about the boringness. Any who Twilight is all no I can't be in love with a vampire but alas I am and my best friend hates him because he is a werewolf and oh my, my best friend is in love with me. True Blood is like the exact same with the Vampire having insane friends and the girl being so weird its fun. Twilight like stole True Blood and decided to make it less obvious by taking out all the good interesting parts.

Now I sound odd because yes I did once like Twilight but it was my guilty pleasure. It was one of those books that you know is atrocious but it grabs you and holds on until you finish it. Then once your done you walk away thinking that you were insane to read those books. It isn't complex with twists and turns. It is like when you start only reading novels and once in awhile you pick up that picture, childrens book and read it just to be like "YEAH! I totally rock at reading." It makes you feel special because its like the easiest read in the world and so it makes you feel overly smart. Twilight is like that picture book for teens... without pictures... and with overly perfect characters which make you feel no attachment at all.

So yep I have a little bit of this vampire fever. I actually always have had this thing for vampires (not a dirty thing). I watch something with vampires and I have this want to have those fangs I constantly run my tongue over my teeth wishing I had awesome teeth. Yes I would be condemned to spending eternity on earth and have to kill people but I would be awesome forever. Plus I don't think I would get as hung up as some people do on turning people. If I loved the dude he would be a vampire and he could just get over it. If he didn't get over it then he can go pine over some stupid mortal girl and go through that stupid "should I turn them" phase. I would just be like fuck it you're a vampire now get over it. Then I also would be stupid enough to watch anyone I loved dearly die. Like Batman, Instead and Dokkie- would totally be vampires. I think we would be a bunch of pretty sweet vampires too.

Apparently it is Vampire Week in my head... Fun fun. I so wish they had kept Moonlight. Yes they were stupid enough to get the two main characters together within a couple episodes but oh what a stupid 80 year old vampire can do. The vampire fever sure is sweet, because like vampires are ever ugly... or at least the good ones. ;)

Until The Next Song,
Zoë