A Post About A Boy

Feeling A Little: Confused
Playing A Little: Hummingbird by Never Shout Never
Recommending A Little: Audio/Rocketry (Upbeat and I like it. :D)

So there is this guy. (Surprised?) I kind of am and he isn't exactly a person I'd lay up at night thinking about. I mean he isn't atrociously ugly... not that I've stared at him enough to come up with a solid opinion... he could be stunningly attractive and I'll die at the sight of his handsomeness... but I just haven't looked until now. I suppose he is sort of my type of guy too, smart, funny... nerdy? And I think he likes me (which led to me thinking about him).

I hate to say that people like me which is why I denied it this long. But today in class he stuttered when he talked to me and could barely look at me. Perhaps I became hideously ugly over the weekend and just didn't notice.... no one has alerted me so (and Justine definitely would or Ryan...). Or perhaps I am making these things up. Although he did get me in trouble with my Physics teacher and he doesn't do it to Justine. Perhaps he hates me instead. ;)

I'm not sure but perhaps my interest in him is more curiosity about whether he does actually like me. I mean I do sort of want it to be true so I can actually be normal and date. Haha. My sister is getting to me. :P He's sweet though and I could date a grade 11 I suppose. Now to get him to not be a stuttering boy around me. :D Maybe I'll invite him to what is quickly becoming a random people group going to Toy Story. I mean Sacha? I never expect him to want to go, never mind with Justine and I.

Any who I am sure you're all like. WHAT THE FUCK!? I know its been a month. :D I'm awful but these are going to be sporadic and probably me moaning about boys and life. As always. I'll try to at least update every 2 weeks, haha. Life is insane and I'm back with my BFF psychologist so who knows. Maybe I'll need one for the rest of my life. Good god that is going to get expensive.

Until the Next Song,
Zoë

Chillin' Like A Villian For A Year Instead Of Education

Feeling A Little: Stressed
Playing A Little: Parking Lot Romance by A Day Away
Recommending A Little: Love Drunk (New CD from Boys Like Girls. I love it)

OMG two weeks I know. What were you doing with your lives without me? :P Probably not wasting 10 minutes of your life. I bug Justine to update and then she starts and I stop. I do have an excuse though and another post. :D My internet was down. Stupid Telus. A week without internet. I think a part of me actually died a little inside. :( But its back and I'm not doing Social to write this. :D Oh yeah I'm taking that by correspondence now, I did an assignment though so I think that should be enough. (I built a webpage, what a hardship.)

This is entirely Justine's fault. I was ranting about how there was no hot new guy in Physics and then I was forced to admit that perhaps maybe Clinton was attractive. Now that manifested. So I facebook stalked him (not ashamed its me. :P) and he's single compared to me thinking he was dating someone. Now sure facebook doesn't tell all but girls are scary and I think 6+ months into the relationship such should change. Perhaps I need to do some personal stalking. God. I'm fucking creepy. I need to work on this. I suppose I should just be content with sharing protractors. But I'm not, he's tall, funny and attractive and I want him. If I can't get my fantasy guys then why can't I get the attractive one who sits in front of me... (A: Because I'm Zoe Vatter I can't be that lucky)

Ah! I just got my social textbook. I'm going to throw myself into this course to get it done. I will get it done and graduate. Sure the sims doesn't help but I had done an assignment and taken notes. :D If need be I'll assign myself homework or spend all day Sunday doing it. I'm fucking graduating. I will. Plus really if I don't get done by January there is oddly a diploma in April. Weird right? But it maybe because of this weird restructuring of Albertan high schools.

I'm being so creepily overly organized these days. I have so much going on I don't want to forget anything. Like I have when my university applications open in my agenda. Definitely do not want to forget to apply for that. :D I'd be fucked. Oddly enough I've started to consider not going to university... I think its all too much for me now... Perhaps I'll do Katimavik. It looks like an interesting year off. We'll see what Garret says. :D

Until the Next Song,
Zoë